Chapter Twenty Eight: Paying the Final Price
How much does it cost to speak the truth? How much would you pay to know the truth about life, about death, or the way the world works? What would you be willing to give up to know with absolute certainty you’ve found true reality? Many say they want the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth, but when shown the cost and the consequences of knowing the truth, they choose to flee. Speaking The Secrets of my Family cost me more than I thought I would have to pay: it cost me jobs, physical and financial wellness, friends, family, rest, and too many material things. What I gained, though, was my immortal soul and the freedom of sleeping in peace. The retribution of The Enemy increased to a roar during the first year of Naomi’s life. It was brutal beyond measure, but amidst this season Chelsea and I found the inexpressible joys of learning how to live in truth at the cost of the lies.
I wish I could articulate the frenzy of attacks we encountered during that season, but words are too weak to carry the burdens of sorrows we endured. How do you explain to someone the hurts of a broken heart? How do you comfort your wife when she has to read Family Crafted lies spoken about you time and time again? How do you wage war when you are the one bleeding and screaming in the bathroom, too agonized to walk? The war waged against us nearly every day and night. Some days were good: peace would invade our home and settle upon us in waves of relief. Other days the Enemy would slam into us with a ferocity that threatened to tear us apart.
Leaving the Families and betraying the Brotherhoods brings its retribution, one I’d embodied far too many times. We had come to know The Captain of The Heavenly Hosts could overcome those whose hands now carry the blades, bullets, poisons, and digital threats. The outright attacks on us had died down after severing our communication methods, but the covert spiritual battle had only begun.
It would come when severe spiritual oppression would invade our home: icy cold presences would manifest, lights would be turned on and off throughout the night, objects would be thrown around the room as dread fell upon us in waves. The reason for the drop in temperature often associated with spiritual manifestations of the darker kind is because when one of these entities comes into our realm, it does so through dimensional doorways.
Remember that The Kingdom of Darkness requires fuel to operate, and the fuel source most available during manifestations is the atmosphere in the room or the negative emotions that are invoked in their targets by their appearance. These manifestations will bring with them a clouding of the mind like a brain fog, fatigue, headaches, or even nausea, which slows your thinking and your reaction time, and hinders your ability to perceive what is going on. The emotions which will likely surface will be things like dread, fleshly cravings, doubt, irritability, rage, hopelessness, and fear. It is often better to understand these extra-dimensional entities as spiritual vampires who feast upon their host’s will, essence, and life.
The counter to this attack comes from the presence and authority of the Prince of Peace. The most effective defense and offense against extra-dimensional entities comes not from holy water, ritualistic exorcism, smart weapons, or magic but through repentance of our sins, His strategic Living Word being read out loud, and worshipping in our obedience to His truth amidst those feelings and experiences. In a sense, this starves their fuel source and begins to weaken and break their power, enabling us by His authority to cast them into the Abyss or to he feet of Jesus, forbidding them from ever returning to us or those in our spheres of influence. It also comes from repentance and the asking of forgiveness for our sins and those sins which may have empowered this wicked one.
These are the fundamentals of spiritual warfare, and none of these things were foreign to Chelsea and me, as we had been contending with this type of attack for years. However, much of it amplified and exposed our own need to learn to take authority over The Enemy, read the Word of God out loud, and pray in agreement with His will for our life. It was critical not to give into the fears and the stealing of the peace we were finding in our new freedom. The peace we were gaining granted us newfound understanding, especially in regards to targeted prayers of repentance for familiar or ancestor sins and spirits.
This peace gave us the ability to start asking The Father to sever also any soul ties that united me with those I killed. These soul ties are generally only discussed in relation to former sexual partners, which need to be repented of. However, they are made not only through sexual union (an act of creating life) but also through taking life. Please see the resource section at the end of this book for an excellent guideline to aid you in this process.
Soul ties are created when there is destruction of a life and these soul ties need to be severed and this is done by repenting for the act of killing even if it was justified, legal, or defensible. By asking The Father to cleanse us of any ungodly soul ties made through this with The Blood of the Lamb, we will be freed from any spiritual repercussions of this union. If I had not done this, I do not believe there would be any way for me to find healing and restoration. So too do our combat veterans need to learn to pray in this way, as well as the counselors, friends, and families of those who’ve been forced to end a life under any circumstance need to pray in this manner.
The attacks did not stay spiritual but stepped into our world when servants of The Family began to do ritual magic and curses on our property. We came home to find power cones of animal bones and ritual objects on our front patio, and at other times we would find massive pieces of animal fat buried in our garden, in the compost bin, and around the corners of our property. Specific animals used during blood sacrifice are defiled and charged with curses before pieces of them are buried in the ground – this is a ritual done to defile the land and break down the hedge of protection.
It was infuriating to know the lengths to which they were willing to go to come against us, and yet it was also a reminder that The Resurrected King has stripped The Enemy of his powers. Each time we would find the chunks of bone or other cursed objects, we would pray and ask The Father to forgive the sins committed that empower the evil spirits sent on assignment against us or the sins of those who were cursing and attacking us. We are commanded to pray for, bless and not curse our enemies, and there is so much power in choosing to forgive those that come against us and asking The Father to strip them of their occult power and to extinguish every curse lit against us.
This is what changes the world: bold belief backed prayer. Prayer even for our enemies. When we choose to forgive our enemies, it strips our true Enemy of his spiritual power over the righteous. We choose to ask The Father to bring to those who persecute us redemption, deliverance, and salvation. We can pray and ask Yahweh to deliver these people from their own bondages and to lead them to freedom in The Way. (Matt. 5:44)
I know most people will not have to worry about cannibalistic covens of serpent worshipers and Jesuit assassins being sent against you. I know most people do not have demonically charged letters showing up in your mailbox, but some of you do. It boils down to the following question: do either curses or blessings spoken of throughout the Bible still apply today? (Exo. 20:1-26, Deut. 28, 30:19, Jer.17: 5-8, Mal. 3:10, Matt. 5) You can choose to try to dismiss this as another dispensation or epoch in time where “that stuff ” no longer applies but it does. Curses still can be lit, rituals can and do empower dark workings that directly affect people, Christians and atheists alike. It is ignorance of this that fuels The Kingdom of Darkness to overcome the Body of Messiah every day.
The Kingdom of Darkness still has to abide by the spiritual laws Yahweh put in place and outlined in His Word. Satan is a title for The Accuser who legally stands upon the Laws of Yahweh when He accuses us and seeks to have legal right to come against us. (Genesis to Revelation, Job 1-3, Zech. 3) If we have sinned and transgressed God’s Instructions, it gives The Enemy a legal right to come against us. It does not matter if this sin was outlawed in the “Old or new Testament” legal right for The Adversary to accuse you is not dependent on man’s perception of its applicability to this season of time. There is no scripture where God ever says something He declared was a sin no longer is a sin. If Yahweh changed in any sense of expression, word, or declaration, He would cease to be The Perfect and Just God. (Num. 23:19, Micah 3:6, James 1:7)
This is why there’s so much power in repentance and in asking for forgiveness for even our secret sins: this renders those accusations powerless. However, if we continue to walk in willful, and proud disobedience, we allow the Enemy legal foothold to work against us, to send curses against us, which will be able to ignite and burn away our blessings. (Prov. 26:2, Num. 23:23) The truth that kept Chelsea, Naomi and I alive, and still does to this day is that obedience to God’s Loving Instructions is what brings about blessings and extinguishes curses.
Our loving obedience to His Ways gives us assurance of knowing the hedge of protection promised us will be strong and impenetrable. Chelsea and I in no uncertain way believe the reasons we are still alive is because we have learned to seek to cover any doors we have open to the Enemy with The Blood of The Lamb. Through humility and doing our best to turn and go in a new direction of our life, we seek to close those doors so they can never be opened again. We seek to let The Scriptures circumcise our flesh and mark us as set-apart unto His ways.
The reason our heart still beats is that we began to walk in His ways and obey His Loving Instructions. Without The Father’s mercy and faithfulness in honoring our loving attempts to follow Him, we would be dead. I know the breath in my lungs is a gift from Him. I know some people wake up every day devising ways to destroy my new family. I know the lion stalking in the darkness who seeks to steal, kill, and destroy the hope of life I’ve been given. (1 Peter 5:8) I decide to pray for those people; I choose to bless my enemies and not curse them. I pray they are brought to repentance, deliverance, and ultimately salvation. I choose to forgive those individuals for their murderous machinations and malice. I instead let the knowledge of this war drive me into studying my new weapons of warfare. Because of this, Chelsea and I have been able to learn a great deal about The War of the Ages we were all born into. It is from those experiences and our hunger to see you made ready for The War that we share this with you all.
In the months following our severing of ties with The Family, a more significant form of attack came against Chelsea and me. Most individuals will not suffer this type of engagement, but those of you who do, I hope you will know there is no weapon formed against you that will prosper. (Isaiah) When this type of attack came against us, we set about our usual ways of praying and interceding for deliverance, but it would not stop when we prayed and took authority over it in the name of Jesus. It didn’t take long for us to learn what this was. These spirits coming against us were not demonic, nor were they devils or higher powers; rather these icy presences which would go into the house often appearing as shadowy creatures were human spirits called “astral projections” or “astrals”.
In occult groups, individuals are taught by the aide of other spirits, meditative practices, as well as with altered states of consciousness, how to separate their spirit from their body. It is a practice now widely taught and propagated in New Age and Eastern Arts circles as a way of going on “The Astral Planes or higher planes of consciousness.” Not every individual partaking in this knows they are utilizing deceptive spiritual powers to help them leave their body, while the spirit possesses your body as other spirits take them around on the astral planes. The place in which they go may appear as though it is filled with total unity, oneness and connectivity to it all. Yet another experiencer might be an intentional left hand practitioner guiding their way through The Planes with black majik bearing markers of death. The second heavens dimensional domain in which they travel is one that has been cut off as a protective and blessed gift until the time Yahweh’s restoration makes all things new.
The Planes are the dimensional battlegrounds where fallen ones are engaged with those righteous heavenly host, and it is not a place for mankind to dwell. Experiencers and practitioners regularly report angels of light possessing their body or an ascended master leading them to secret knowledge hidden in the libraries of Thoth. They are experiencing real events of travel through galaxies and other dimensions; however, the spirits will show them things that all too often are cloaked in deception, ensuring the doctrine and practice spreads. Those who do know The Secrets of occult workings operate on this spiritual plane to curse, attack, or target individuals. My Family members, like many others in The Bloodline Families and Brotherhoods, are highly trained in this practice so they can learn intimate knowledge about their enemy’s curse or torment their targets.
If ever you have to encounter this, or a spirit, which appears to be a person that will not leave by The Authority of Jesus, you must pray somewhat differently. We first off pray that Yahweh would forgive the sins that empowered this person to go on the astral plane to remote view or spiritually come against us. Also, we would pray that He would send His holy angels to drive away the spirits that are accompanying this individual and escort them from our property. We ask Him to build an impenetrable hedge of protection around our property that no human or evil spirit can penetrate. Time and time again, my Family members would come against us in this way especially during high ritual days, and we would see real power in walking in The Father’s authority to drive them away. The battles we fought during this time were not limited to outside influence but some came from within.
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